Gas Station Pismo Beach, California 1970’s| Photo: Mark Weber
Essentially, we all
drift through life
floating
Like a dream . . . .
aaeven as
much as we intend to direct ourselves, oh, in the many
endeavors, that seem to require
………our attention
Yes, a dream, as I get older it all seems like a dream
It’s not as if I remember everything . . .
after all, our lives are a mist, the gossamer curtains
gentle breeze . . .
The 1970s for me, it seems I was drifting continuously . . .
This photo of Pismo Beach I find in a box, more dreamlike than real . . .
California used to be full of these little fog-bound coastal towns lost in time
there were sand dunes at Pismo, you could sleep there among the dunes
lay there watching the stars and listening to the ocean
Staring out in space once more trying to fathom the conundrum
that the universe never ends . . .
—Mark Weber | 6feb10
Some of the idea for this poem
overtook me in this powerful couple paragraphs
on p294 of Peter Matthiessen’s SNOW LEOPARD
where he quotes his young wife who has just died in NYC
during a snow storm — cancer:
–Deborah Love
ANNAGHKEEN (Random House, 1970)
This poem and the photo really gets to me. Resonates. Fog-bound towns… I grew up with them. I loved getting over to Half Moon Bay. In those years, no one really especially wanted to go there. It was not a destination. Mostly, it was because it was usually cold and fog-bound. Also, there was a strong undertow there, not much good for swimming, much less sun-bathing, just walking and dreaming. I had to watch my step so I wouldn’t disturb one of the many large jelly fish that washed up on the beach. The kelp was often 30 feet long. Also dreamlike were the fields of artichokes, big thistles that didn’t look edible on the stalk. There were shacks set back from the road, visible through the thick mists.
Mark
was memory cloud dancing
during my southern California days
in exile from Brooklyn
the full moonlit vision
of grunions was in Malibu
hanging out w/ surfers in a collective pad
called Orgy Towers
a month or so later
I was living w/ Pete Jolly’s ex-wife
in Topanga
after hanging out in her downtown Hollywood pad
facing the freeway facing
Hollywood Blvd
(Jack Sheldon, Warne Marsh, Ronnie Ball,
& a cast of many including Chet who
dropped by to hit the head
& exit much later w/out saying goodbye or hello)
so much more
like you
we’ve been around
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